I have noticed lately that I am carrying around quite a bit of anger 😡
I of course, maybe like you, carry it inside.
I don’t typically express my anger.
It just sits below the surface, seething and looming and pops out in ways that don’t serve anyone.
I try and repress it and or don’t even know it is there until I really sit and observe quietly.
Usually my anger shows up in frustration, apathy, sadness or depression.
When I am able to sit quietly without judgement for myself or others, I most often realize the person or thing I am angry at is MYSELF.
It is tough to be angry at yourself because the buck stops here :-0
It is a self inflicted wound that could have been prevented (presumably)
I ultimately get angry at myself for allowing my boundaries that I so carefully have tried to construct (this of course took decades to do)
get completely obliterated!
Saying yes to things I should say NO 🚫to
Not speaking up or speaking out 🗣
Doing things for other peoples comfort or benefit and ignoring or minimizing the impact it will have on me or my loved ones 💕
Falling into old patterns
Falling out of new more healthy patterns😔
Failing to utilize all of the learning and lessons that have been taught to me the last couple of years 📚
The list goes on ✍️
Yes, angry at myself!!!
Now what ❓❓❓
Now, I need to forgive myself and find compassion for myself
Perhaps these are just continued layers of the journey of life
to love myself just the way I am and know that there is always more to learn along the way and consistently work to get better
Be open, be curious, observe without judgment & with much compassion my thoughts, my patterns and my actions
Acceptance and Forgiveness of myself, for myself so that I can show up in a better way for me and everyone around me
That is my action step for today.
What is yours? What are your thoughts 💭❓
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