Sunday, March 7, 2021

Grief


Grief is like a wave on the beach 

It washes in and out

Up and over


Sometimes tiny

Sometimes ominous

It flows through you and over you

It can be gone one minute

Roaring back the next 


Grief is the most painful reminder that you are alive 

It will knock you down to the studs and make you question the why 


It levels you 

Renders you speechless, motionless often without a will 


It is the one shared emotion that can bring us back together again because of the raw nature, the humility and the inequity of its presence 


The only way to get beyond the waves to the serenity of the calm is to go through them 

You can stay on the sandy beach and watch the serene calm on the other side but 

To really feel it, immerse in it, bathe in its tranquility 

Is to muster up the extreme courage 

Take a step in 

Feel the wave ..... its coldness, it’s inhumane nature, slapping you, hitting you knocking you down and often leaving you feeling like you don’t want to get back up


Trudge forward, plant your feet in the ground 

Take small steps 

Turn to the side if you have to

Duck under for a bit and swim

Feel it, take it on

Do what is takes to get to the other side

So you can again rejoice in the calm, the tranquil, the knowing 


Will there be other waves??? 

Probably

Each one you conquer will give you the ability to go through the next


Life is not easy, life can be very hard 

Life is not for the weak or faint of heart

But oh is it worth it 

Baby steps my friend 

They can get you through 

So you can make it to the end

Taking one day, one hour, one moment at a time

Accepting what is 

Appreciation and Gratitude for the moment that is now

Look up, look around, question, be curious, be open, be you 


Grief is cruel and it is unkind

You can and will get through this 

One step at a time 


I am here for you, to hold your hand 

To walk side by side

Together we can

Take each wave

As it comes


We can sit in silence or talk it out

Whatever you need is what this is about 










Thursday, April 16, 2020

It’s Not Too Late :-)


Well hello :-). I decided to take a small step today and write a post .... I came across this one that I never posted. In todays day of stay at home and lots of isolation and this what they call new normal which I prefer to think of as a temporary reality,  I thought this might be prudent to post in case anyone is feeling any of the below:


Whether you are burnt out/feeling like you are too far gone emotionally, physically, spiritually or a combination...........as long as you continue to be above ground, it’s not too late!

It all starts with a step.

That was my post.  What I will add in is what I was going to post which I think will be prudent.
Celebrate the little wins, that can be a small step to a better minute, hour, day...you know where I am going with this :-)

A little win is something as small as getting out of bed and moving to a different room, having a cup of coffee, answering that email that is plaguing you, write one thing you are grateful for,  starting your day with a two minute meditation, organizing a drawer.....ok...maybe that is a medium step..........take any step and I promise for at least a minute you will feel better and hopefully you can then take another and another and another and then maybe a nap........don’t get crazy on your first day :):);)

XOXO

With love 💕 and light 💡 

Small Steps, Big Things 



Saturday, November 11, 2017

Gratitude

It has been a long time since I have posted.  Life as you all know gets so busy and priorities get shuffled.
Today I have decided to get back to my daily gratitude blog.  On my Doggslife blog "Doggslife.blogspot.com"  under the 2017 posts

I just started back up "365 Days of Gratitude Returns"

For the next 365, I will post a daily gratitude......small and or large.  I find these gratitudes can really shape your day, week , month and year........(see what I did there :-), start small and it grows to big)

I encourage any and all of you to take a few moments and find what you are grateful for.
I welcome you to check mine out and post yours. It is fun, fast and in my opionion, worth its weight in gold.

XO

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Letting Go

Sometimes, things, jobs, relationships just run their course.  We try and hold on to these things and really they are just holding us.  Why is it in life we are so scared to let go and terrified to let life's changes happen?
If one looks back in their life, most doors closed do open another more spectacular door.
The more we grip on the more we lose our grip.  The truth is, that sometimes it is just over or time to let go :(
As sad as that can be to come to terms with, it is often a true test to our character and a growth experience that most frequently can lead to the better.  One must walk through the sadness to emerge out the other side as a more beautiful and fulfilled soul and spirit.
I do not suggest that it will be easy by any stretch of the imagination! Depending on what one is letting go of, the harder it can be.  What I do know is, the more we fight it, the longer we stay in the sadness.
I have to remind myself to have faith, be open, be mindful, try and put things in perspective and learn what I can from the experience, when I can.

Be kind to yourselves and others. Take the Small Steps, so you can get to the Big Things :):);)

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Tri Update

I am back :) Been remiss in uodating the Tri Status. Since finishing Santa Barbara Tri, I have completed three additonal since. Long Beach, Seal Beach and Race the Base (Reverse Tri - Very Fun)!

Each race has been an adventure, many learning lessons but most of all given me a sense of accomplishment.

The act of signing up for your next event keeps you motivated to train and push yourself.  I have just signed up to return to the crime scene, Santa Barbara, where it all began.

I look forward to updating you all on the event - gonna go for a ride right now :):):)

Keep taking Small Steps to achieve Big Things - share your small steps with us.

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Sunday, September 15, 2013

Road to First Mini Triathlon

I can't believe how long it has been since I have posted!  Well, here it is:

Completed month 3 of training.  Took to Ocean water swimming much better than I thought.  The wetsuit really gives you an edge with staying afloat which to me, helps with peace of mind.  As the month goes by and life gets so busy it was hard to keep up the training, however, it was kept up.

Made it to morning of first Tri -- Santa Barbara 500 M swim, 6 Mile Bike and 2 Mile Run.  Wake up time was 4:30 am, to leave hotel at 5am for 5:30 am arrival at race via bike.  Got adorned with gear -- didn't have to put on make up which is always a treat and trotted bike (new bike by the way - Red, Felt Z4 -- love it!) down the hallway and stairs.  We (my husband and I) jumped on our bikes in the dark and started our ride.  It was a beautiful, serene morning ride which took about 20 minutes.  As we arrived to the bib pick up, the excitement starts to brew.  Not too many people there yet so we really got to savor the experience.
Got in the tiny line, gave my name and got my packet.  Pulled out my timing chip, had it checked and was good to go.  We sat down with our coffees (wow, do they know how to get the tourist dollar on that) and went though our packets -- this is it, it is really the day we have been working up to.  Put my number sticker on my helmet and bike, bib number on my race belt and did a little pre race relax.

About 6:30am, time to go into the Transition area and set up first transition -- very exciting as I had never done this before.  Got into the area early and my sis and I were able to set up next to each other.  We marked our lane with chalk at the end so we knew where to run into as the area can get very full and confusing.  We mounted our bikes on the rack (btw, just watch other people set up and you will figure it out:)) set out our little towel,  shoes, helmet, gloves, wetsuit and  **note to self next time a water bucket for feet.

More people are starting to pour in -- we are in the women's only division so our transition area all women -- all seem very cool.  There were teams of moms, daughter/mother teams, young people, older people, super fit people and peeps that didn't appear super fit.  None the less, very exciting and a little scary all at the same time.  As my husband was in the co-ed division, his race started before ours.  As we were standing and waiting for him to come out of the water there was a guy next to me that was wet and in his wetsuit and I said, "Wow, did you finish already?"  He replied, "No, I had to quit mid swim because I couldn't breathe".  Needless to say, I was glad my sister didn't hear this as she was already very anxious about the swim portions as many are, including myself.  I chose not to chat with this man further as I didn't want it to mess with my head.

7:45 am, time to head to the beach to start this monumental experience.  All wet-suited up (I chose sleeveless option as sleeves make me feel constricted), colored swim cap on and standing in front of the Big Blue Ocean -- wholly cow, we are really gonna do this thing!  My sis and I chose to let other people run down first and we would take our time.  Many people go in the water first to acclimate to it, I like to just run, jump in and go.
There it is, the blow horn, Game Time!!!! Running into the water with all these people at the same time is a wild and weird feeling.  The water is chilly but the excitement overrides the cool temperature. In my head I am thinking how surreal this is, all these feet around me kicking away.  You can feel that waves around you, moving you about-- it is weird.  As you are swimming you have to manage your energy, your thoughts going through your head -- it is sort of frantic yet peaceful at the same time.  I swam by a little school of fish, made sure I kept sighting so I didn't end up in Catalina and stayed on the correct side of the buoy's.  About half way through I remember thinking how cool this experience is and that it is not as hard as I thought it would be.  I cannot put into words what an amazing feeling it is to round the buoy as you are swimming back towards the beach to finish the swim!  The feeling that rivals swimming into the shore is when you are running out, up the beach -- people are cheering and telling you good job and in my head I am joyful, proud and thanking God that I just completed the swim portion of the event.  It brings a little tear to my eye as I sit here and recount the experience.  Btw, another note to self, remember to smile as you exit the water so your pictures don't make you look like you are struggling on the toilet :-).

Running up the sand and into the transition area -- my head is racing with thoughts of completing the swim and thinking onto the bike and what do I have to do next?  Get to the bike, soaking wet as I strip off my wetsuit, shaking with excitement.  Soak my feet in someone else's water bucket (sorry).  Dry my feet, put on my cycling shorts (another learned lesson, next time need a tri suit! Look at me already talking about next time :)), put on running shoes, helmet and grab bike and start running bike out of transition area (you have to walk or run it, No riding bike in T area). Ooooops, bike comes to sudden stop as I forgot I hung race belt on wheel and it got stuck.  Had to spend time to get it unstuck which is not good as the transition time all counts against your overall time.

As I get bike out of T area and hop on for the ride the feeling of exhilaration is so overwhelming I almost start to cry --- I can't believe that I am doing this.  The ride is a little more hilly than I anticipated and it is an open course.  I am cruising along and thinking "I got this" only to be held up by someone running on the course, a lady with her car in the middle of the road and not moving it and people riding in the middle not staying to the right.  All in all though, it was a decent ride and as you approach the Transition area to dismount the bike the feelings of exhilaration return.

Ahhh, now the dreaded run portion.  I like to jog and at my own pace.......running for speed anymore is not my favorite thing to do.  Run bike back to T area, mount the bike, take off helmet, and go! It is such a weird feeling going from bike to running -- your legs feel wobbly and unstable.  I trek out one foot unstably in front of the other. In my mind I am thinking, this is it - 2 miles and then I have completed my First Mini Tri!  I trudge along down the bike path.  It is starting to warm up -- I just keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I keep thinking I want to run faster but I don't want to run out of energy.  I run past a lady and her husband, people pass me -- in my head I just keep telling myself, keep going, this is it.  There it is........the loop to turn back!  I am on my way.  As I approach the shoot to go across the finish line, I think to myself to savor this experience as it is almost over. As I run into the shoot I start to turn up the heat and run as fast as I can to get myself over the finish line -- here it is, the moment of truth...........I raise my hands into the air, let out a scream and cross the finish line!!!!!! :):);)  They say your name over the loud speaker as you cross and you know you have done it! I get my timing chip removed, my finishers medal is placed proudly upon me and I have completed a new challenge that I set out to achieve.  This is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

On the heels (no pun) of the excitement, elation, and sheer proudness -- we now decide to do Long Beach Tri next, 800 M swim, 11 Mile Bike and 3 Mile run.

For anyone thinking of taking on the challenge, I recommend it highly!!!!!!!


Saturday, July 27, 2013

Road to First Mini Triathlon

7/26/13

Wow how the time is flying by!  Finished month two training in North Carolina and Baltimore.  Between the hotel gyms and the Lakes in Carolina I was able to keep up my training regimen. The lake swim was good practice.  Need to do ocean next.

Have now completed week one of month 3.  I did a bike ride today with hills and have learned that after two weeks of no hill training it definitely shows.  I had to actually stop for a second and catch my breath.  Went farther and longer than I thought despite wanting to stop a couple times -- I am glad I did as I got to see a bunny, the top of Friendship Park and raced a squirrel (the squirrel won).

I have found that I am starting to shift into competitive mode instead of the original mission which was just to have fun and complete the task -- not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, I will keep you posted :):);)