Showing posts with label apathy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label apathy. Show all posts

Friday, June 3, 2022

Who Are You Really Mad At❓

I have noticed lately that I am carrying around quite a bit of anger ๐Ÿ˜ก

I of course, maybe like you, carry it inside.  

I don’t typically express my anger.  

It just sits below the surface, seething and looming and pops out in ways that don’t serve anyone.  


I try and repress it and or don’t even know it is there until I really sit and observe quietly.  


Usually my anger shows up in frustration, apathy, sadness or depression.  


When I am able to sit quietly without judgement for myself or others, I most often realize the person or thing I am angry at is MYSELF.


It is tough to be angry at yourself because the buck stops here :-0 


It is a self inflicted wound that could have been prevented (presumably)


I ultimately get angry at myself for allowing my boundaries that I so carefully have tried to construct (this of course took decades to do) 

get completely obliterated!


Saying yes to things I should say NO ๐Ÿšซto 


Not speaking up or speaking out ๐Ÿ—ฃ


Doing things for other peoples comfort or benefit and ignoring or minimizing the impact it will have on me or my loved ones ๐Ÿ’•


Falling into old patterns

Falling out of new more healthy patterns๐Ÿ˜”


Failing to utilize all of the learning and lessons that have been taught to me the last couple of years ๐Ÿ“š


The list goes on ✍️


Yes, angry at myself!!!

Now what ❓❓❓


Now, I need to forgive myself and find compassion for myself


Perhaps these are just continued layers of the journey of life 

to love myself just the way I am and know that there is always more to learn along the way and consistently work to get better


Be open, be curious, observe without judgment & with much compassion my thoughts, my patterns and my actions 


Acceptance and Forgiveness of myself, for myself so that I can show up in a better way for me and everyone around me 


That is my action step for today.


What is yours?  What are your thoughts ๐Ÿ’ญ


Would love to read๐Ÿ“–/hear๐Ÿ‘‚ them 



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Saturday, March 20, 2021

Maybe Good Enough is Enough

How many times do we put things off until we can get it right, do it right, not make a mistake....and so on and so on.  We torture ourselves over the minutia and the procrastination, the overwhelm that can just lead to apathy and then nothing happens :(

What if good enough is enough??? What if just taking one step towards doing one thing on that project your putting off or that task that needs to be done or that email you need to write??? 

What if you take one tiny step? If might not be the perfect step but it is the one that puts you in motion... it is the one that starts the process of kinetic energy. I am not sure why or how I remember that a body in motion stays in motion and a body at rest stays at rest....trust me I am no physicist ... I don’t even know if that is a principle of physics :-) If there was only a device I could quickly look that up on...oh yes there is and it is ...wow, I did learn something in school;):);)

What I do know is that once you start moving, it makes it much easier to continue to move and next thing you know you look back and accomplish something and it FEELS GREAT! 

Take this quick blog post today .... it started with one word, one concept and kept going until now.  It is not perfect but it is something.

So I ask you .... what is one step you could take?  You don’t know....if you did know, what would it be?

Take the step, I dare you .... then let us know what it was and we can celebrate together!!!!

Xoxo


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